The Break Up.

I finally broke up with Z. Well, technically we broke up on Tuesday, and today’s Sunday, but still. How does one talk about a break up on a blog? It’s so raw, and it seems so sordid to advertise the fact that “Oh hey, guess what everyone? Come read about how I’m full of sadness and depression because i just broke up.” It’s such a personal thing. I don’t know about you guys, but I just… can’t. So I hit upon a solution.

Talk about it anonymously. Thus, dimthelights was born!

You know what? I think I’m a freak. I really really love Z. He really really loves me. And yet, after one and a half years of coupledom, I’m fine now. After two to three days of crying, I’m okay. He’s not. Which is normal. I mean, hello? I just ended a long long relationship, and I’m… fine? I don’t get it!!! I’ve never gotten my heart broken before and I’m not saying I want to, duh, but don’t you think it’s so weird that I’m okay??? (don’t worry, I’m not in denial or something. I really am okay.)

*frowns* Well, of course I feel really sad about it, but as the days went by, I realised that I’m so sad because I feel so bad at the way he’s taking it. He’s not eating, not sleeping. And I feel hurt and sad for him, but not because of myself. I’m crying for him, not for me.

Wtf is wrong with me???